Reject

1blood3.jpg Reject I am human and i need to be loved Just like everybody else does' That's how she felt. But she would not kill herself. She would give it time. More time for starving,bingeing, depression, no self esteem and most of all....sadness. Would anyone ever love her? copyright gothgirl 2008 All she wanted was love. People do read books by their covers. It wasn't fair. The words from 'The Smiths' song echoed in her mind. 'There's a club, if you'd like to go You could meet somebody who really loves you So you go, and you stand on your own And you leave on your own And you go home, and you cry And you want to die She would pour another drink. Lie on her back on the carpet. Listen to depressing music. Take the knife and slide it across her skin. Feel the relief of her self loathing. She knew there was someone far worse off then her, but her brain could only register her own negative thoughts of how life was always painful. always hard, always judgemental. She was overweight. She hated herself. No boys ever liked her. They preferred her pretty friend instead. When she went clubbing she would always come home sad as boys would not look at her or talk to her. Tears would stream down her face. reject sad depressed