Her Endless Agony

Her Agony

Her stomach is empty. She is starving but she enjoys the feeling of being hungry. She looks in the mirror and can accept how she looks when she does not eat. But then the hunger grows. And it makes her feel sick. She so wants to eat. But is too scared. So she waits for the hunger to pass. But it wont. Finally she gives in. And eats. The guilt of every morsel of food that touches her lips is almost unbearable. She tries to stop but its too late. She needs to fill the emptiness inside her. Not only from lack of food but from sadness which has started all of this

She looks in the mirror. And feels ill. Her stomach turns as she sees the fat. She cant stand to look at herself and turns away. Goes to the toilet and puts her fingers down her throat. To get rid of the food. And the fat. Not realising she is rotting her teeth. Not realising she is damaging her organs. Not realising this will kill her. All she wants is to be normal. Wishing she could eat properly. Wishing for a miracle. copyright gothgirl 2009